The meaning of the lyrics of the song "Broken Mind" by the artist "Velvet Acid Christ"

Clutching my hands, nails at my skin,

The rules of the game, come crashing in.

My broken mind, my broken soul,

Your fucking lies, I sold every bit so we go.

Watch me bleed, watch me suffer,

The game never changes,

My heart's on the floor bleeding,

For your silly smile.

Watch my head explode,

Going upward, then back on the floor,

It's bleeding,

The blood trickles on the wall,

Open your heart, and watch me fall apart.

I never wanted it this way,

Don't you know I try so hard to make you,

Listen, you never listen,

Nobody listens, nobody cares.

They all just stare,

At the sad sight I am,

A loser with no mind, no home,

No don't remind me,

I know better, its all my fault,

I should 've tried harder from the very start,

But they watch me, they kill me, push me down,

I cant help my situation,

No life no, no life, nothing at all,

Just me, in discontent,

Watch as they stare at me,

They stare at me, they stare at me,

What a loser I am, I am, oh I am,

Death, dead, dead.

Hold my soul above my head,

Shoot it ten times instead,

They walk in front of me and laugh,

And kick me in the face,

Spit on me, shoot me, kill me,

You don't care anyway.

So what's the difference,

I'm in pain, it never goes away,

You just laugh at me, you laugh at me...

Sorry I never predicted that this was the end of our relationship,

I tried to make it better, to make it better.

No one listens, no one cares,

They all just stare, and laugh, then walk away,

What's the big deal, I'm just a loser.